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Name: Troy
Country: United States
State: Missouri
Birthday: 8/13/1981
Gender: Male
Interests: There's a gauntlet of 'em. I love God, reading The Word, being a part of a church community, being a part of Acacia Fraternity, listening to all kinds of music (except for country, but if the person driving likes to listen to it, I humbly allow it), watching Professional Wrestling, playing video games, card games, board games, helping people, getting to know people, spending time with my family, outdoorsy stuff (running, hiking a little bit), travelling, cooking, driving, boating, swimming, tinkering with my computer.
Expertise: mostly an expert at video games, ex-computer programmer, home health care, cook (I am learning the culinary arts slowly but surely), doing voice impersonations, rapping to a lot of songs, and a self-proclaimed champion of rock/paper/scissors.
Occupation: Student
Message: message meEmail: email me
Website: visit my website
AIM:  Big813
Member Since:
6/18/2004
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| me? I think I have officially fallen off the face of the planet. Till next post, Take Care and God Bless! - Troy | | |
| That Red and Black thing really started to hurt my eyes after a while. I felt like I had to play checkers or something. Maybe not a new person, completely, just growing up that's all. Seeing what steps I should be taking in life next, as the next few months are up in the air. Adjusting my attitude is helping out a bit too. Getting out of that funk called slacking, we'll see how long that lasts. I am too optimistic as a person. I have a lot of pride. Those 2 put together don't help me out much. I am seeing my downfalls a lot moreso now, and that is helping me focus on what I do know, and what I can do, instead of saying I can do anything all the time. Honestly, I can't. I have fallen flat on my face too much, especially since school got out, and it has to do with me overstating what I can do. Let's face it, I live at home with my dad, and I get by because my sister own's a business and she gives me work and chores to do. Kind of funny, kind of sad, but it's not going to last forever, or so I tell myself. It's a goofy situation to be in, and that is because I wasn't planning on being in this situation after college. I better pass those actuary exams, or this will go on longer. Till next post, Take Care and God Bless! - Troyboy | | |
| Writing just to write I guess...
I no longer pour my heart and soul and troubles onto this Xanga blog. What crazy things have happened in life that I can share with people? What new ideas or thoughts have come to my mind that I want to get off my chest? Nothing right now, so it seems.
There's just been a lack of motivation in my life recently. I can't figure out where that is coming from, but it is driving me nuts. I have felt like I reached some sort of new apathetic level in my life. The Lake of the Ozarks does nothing for me. I do not get that sense of awe being in a quiet little place on the water anymore.
I do not do enough to keep myself busy in life right now. Sure, there was the studying (working on exam 2 right now) and doing office work, but I don't spend my days with anyone down there.
I think that's what I miss. I miss my old friends at the Rock, I miss my brothers, I miss other old friends from school. I get these times to connect every so often now with my old friends and brothers, that I thrive on them so much, I wish I could do it everyday again.
I told myself that college was just a part of life, that most of the people I meet I probably will not be in touch with when I got done, and I would be ok with that believing that others would be ok with that. But I don't know, are others ok with that? Am I?
I feel stuck. I don't feel planted some place. That feeling is really stressful to me. I know it will pass, and trusting in God most definitely helps. Yet, I still feel like I have 2 feet in 2 different places - Lake and Columbia. Yet, I don't want both of my feet in either of those places right now. The time has come for me to move on in life, yet I'm not.
It will work out, because I have no other choice.
Till next post, Take care and God Bless!
- Troyboy | | |
| Fiancee turns 22 on the 11th, 2 of my friends get married on the 12th, my 25th on the 13th, big test to determine my near future on the 18th...
After months of beating my head over stuff, I finally understand calculus and probabilities again. I have taught myself everything I need to know in order to start a career as an actuary. Now, I have to take a test to show that I know what it takes.
The test is a 30-question multiple choice test, that takes 3 hours to complete.
That gives me an average of 6 minutes per question.
Each questions takes about a page of math to do.
What am I doing to myself?
Making a better future, that's my answer.
And remember folks, The difference between a 5 and a 6 is one question.
Till next post, Take Care and God Bless!
- Troyboy | | |
| A lot of us lost a friend this weekend. He was a very loveable guy, liked to be around people, had the heart of a servant...
I miss him.
After reading some reports on another site, I got really angry at the fact that no charges have been made against this young man who was driving down the wrong way on the interstate. How could he not be at fault?
No drugs or alcohol involved? That's very puzzling.
He doesn't remember? How convenient.
Out of anger, I say throw the book at him.
Out of God's love, I pray he repents.
Till next post...
- Troy | | |
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